life might be btr without the feelin of love then... cos tat time... becos of me puttin so much in it... it affects my relationship and cause a turmoil among my families and frens... it realli jus sucks... even my grades... which unexpectedly came to a halt on april and the next thing i found out... i broke up with my ex without her saying it to me face to face nor phone to phone... guess who told me for her? yep her fren... tats why i think this a suckiest break up received in the world... a third party involved breakup... wad fires me up is they are comparing tertiary education with non-tertiary which is jus subjective to them who thinks its right...

things got worst... but nvm.... life still goes on... told myself... concentrate on working and nth else... but i still cant forget her tat time... got into more trouble though i m not the firestarter, fingers were still pointed at me as a culprit TO REPLY SOMEONE TO START A CONFLICT. sounds familiar like some arse dad defending his loser son... i realli start to give up in life when suddenly smth dawn on me...

why dun i think from another point of view... after a breakup... i made more frens, i have more freedom, i m happier, found who realli are buddies and i slightly improved my grades... every guy will have to experience this afterall... onli i m more unlucky hahas... i have more munny now, had a exciting trip to jap, sense of fashion kinda improved too and yep i m living fine now... free from worries and troubles. what i m feeeling now is totally 360 degrees of wad i felt 6 months ago.. TRUE HAPPINESS!!! the old ELSEN IS BACK!!! this time modified to be more crappy, frenly and etc =D

yep... i'll benchmark a special day too... 07112009 :)